If you want the result badly enough, you already have the motivation and momentum to achieve your goals. Free yourself from the constraint of efficiency. You are allowed to take the slowest path to your destination.
I struggled with the fear of public speaking for a long time. I had terrible stagefright. In one particularly bad gig, I was so afraid that my legs stopped working.
Fast forward to a recent performance. I was warming up with my team and I noticed... I wasn't afraid anymore! I was simply looking forward to being on stage.
Those two gigs were twelve years apart.
I took the slowest path, but I don't mind. I am proud I overcame my fear. Does it matter how efficient I was?
Relax. Be inefficient. You will get there.